This has been the most stressful past six months ever- really, just a constant state of relentless stress, with a barrage of things beyond our control going wrong,
B I G
l i t t l e.
Today my new work computer was all screwy, which caused about 10 HOURS of work to be lost and I just lost it.
Normally I am big crier, but today I was really angry beyond tears, at the absurdity of the whole work computer situation.
I did not sign up for this shit!
I now have no voice.
I have never really understood people that punch, or throw things, but I am really starting to see the beauty in that sort of release.
I stew, and simmer and rage on the inside until I am sick and voiceless or have a headache from crying, none of which does a bit a good.
There are those sickeningly healthy, balanced people that exercise away their frustration.
That will never be me.
I recently started a pilates class, and all it does it make me more angry.
Talking is always good for me, but I feel like I have talked the ears off my most trusted friends and I have no new spin, things are just really shitty with no end in sight.