the blog has been eating my posts

If I seem to be getting progressively dumber over time, it is a (relative) result of this blog eating about half of the posts I painstakingly write, then when I rewrite them all the clever stuff falls away and you get the more mundane version.
so it goes.

another cold day

HOLY COW! How do people do it? living in those super cold places?
This is the coldest winter I have ever experienced (or that I remember), where it is consistently COLD for DAYS and DAYS!

And the bills, geesh. How are people supposed to live, with $330 water bills, and $200 gas bills and on and on?

I am feeling better today. I wouldn't go so far as to call it good, but better than I have felt in weeks.
So despite the COLD weather I am calling this a good day.

God is a concept, by which we measure our pain

oh, John Lennon how I love thee...

so the meeting went about as well as I expected.

I wonder if my expectations dictated the outcome.
I didn't have an open mind.
Not really. I was not surprised, in fact the group was pretty much exactly as I would have predicted. I might have envisioned the main player to be more handsome, but otherwise my mental image was pretty much straight on.

I was tired as hell, and unable to be as articulate as I would have liked to be. I hate looking stupid or feeling stupid in a group settings, so my own lack of polish was troubling.

So today I am left to meditate on whether I am limited myself, or protecting myself and whether or not I am allowing my own ego to get in the way.

talk about running of at the mouth. not in a mood for being witty, even a little.